16/12/2007

howdy.quite long time i dunot scribble at here. neither i lost my tauch in writing nor nothing interesting story. but i got bit feel anxious to break the 100 of my posting,hehe...

into the darkness

Actually people are struggling to know themself. try to find which are his weakness and strongest. sometime we go into experimental and some sort to know better what we are. What we want and what our future prospect. In this life we always face two ways or maybe many more in our life. The conflict is we don't know which one the right ways that we have to choose. Moreover, we like both ways either.but sometimes the situation fate us, So we have to choose which one is more important without loose anything. In this situation people have to think deeply because every step to move on is influence another things in their life such as the friends relationship, family, study and others. People should to calm when they have to choose in their life, with deep thinking and put on it little bit wise we could choose the precise thing. whether at the end it will gain us or ruin us lets God decide it. at least we are brave to choose and moreover that is our own desicion and believing.

Sometimes the society is become the problem number one in deciding something in our life. The society will deem n fit it tight. They have ways to let you know and indicate of their disapproval. And after they have done that, they don't even have to be there for u to censor yourself or even to support u till the end.they will attempt every single ways to prove this is wrong that is rite. the society convinces us how important to use majority opinion than single. For me society have attempt and accept the differentiation in our member.

We life in liberalism spirit that believe every people have their on right to do what they want to do as long as they do not break the law. But one again, it is between liberty and fraternity, both are needed but usually one is weaken the other, thus one is should be selected.

But I believes on freedom spirit, people should do what they wants to do on their belief. If we fail at least we try, no regret at the end.

Out of track
this is not yet the final submission for my result, but i am really2 sad because i got D for engineering and society's subject(for other school like electrical and civil are needed to attend seminar and participate in 1 test only for get at least A-). the same lecturer that put me out of DEAN LIST last year with give me C for one subject which is i supposed to get at least B-. got the wrong for my carry mark at that moment. I dont know why i am always like this. btw hopefully this is not the last result, maybe after senate do their meeting, certain grade of my subjects gonna be higher than origin.

p/s: camne aku nak ambik master ni!!! i am jus leave 2 semester for gain and gain my pionter. i am not counter on LI for 6 months stint bcoz usually easy to score. and hopefully for will next this 2 semester i can do better for my PSM(projek sarjana muda),CIM- computer intragated manufacting.

and seriously aku macam nak sepak jek computer after tgk markah aku.


Ku kelemasan dalam kerinduan
dua jiwa, dua hati,
terpisah antara 2 permukaan,
mencuba untuk menjadi bersama,

tolongi aku,
gapai tangan cinta ini,
aku tetap menanti,
hingga hujung nafas ini

p/s: aku bukan dlm kerinduan =). tetapi masa aku menaip puisi ini, aku menitiskan air mata. tak pasti sama ada air mata kegembiraan atau tidak sebab anak sedara aku menyembur mata aku dengan perfume.


note shah:
aku agak tersentuh menonton bersamamu-penuhi impian. semalam kisah ttg hafizah yg ingin menjadi pakar forensik.aku memberikan credit yg besar utk rancangan ini. pada aku rancangan2 sebeginilah yg baik utk dimuntahkan kpd masyarakat, melayu khususnya. sudah lama semangat dan motivasi kita dilunturkan sejak tahun 1511 lagi~ Doha, Qatar malaysia hanya mendapat 8 emas sahaja dan dlm emas itu hanya shalin dan zandra shj melayu itupun emas berpasukan. betapa melayu jauh ketinggalan dlm bidang sukan~ dan seronok melihat org2 kaya arab memboroskan duit, walaupon kaya tetapi bodoh dungu, bayangkan negara2 arab tanpa petroleum??~