31/08/2006

wahai rupawan...
ini adalah tanah dimana selutnya melekat dikakiku
rintik hujannya membasahi embunku...
panas khatulistiwanya menghitamkan kulitku

sudah tentu kau tahu wahai rupawanku
betapa cantiknya bumiku
kerna bunga yg ku berikan kpd mu itu
adalah dihamparkan oleh bumiku...
dan sudah tentu kau tahu
betapa sejuknya angin dibumiku
kerna wanginmu itu mawar dr bumiku...

oh wahai rupawan...
aku ini anak miskin
makananku hanya simpati dari tanahku
jika kau mencintai aku
maka seribu kali aku mencintai tanah airku
jika sayangmu itu memeluk tubuhku
maka seribu kali aku sanggup mencalarkan
tubuhku ini utk tanah yg kucintai ini

aku tak peduli
mimpiku hanya satu
khayalku hanya satu
lahirku hanya satu
citaku hanya satu
membuatkan cintamu itu mekar dibumiku...

selamat hari merdeka!!!!


note shah:
tadi sambutan merdeka di kolej aku,ada soalan-soalan cepu mas dan diantara soalan-soalan itu ialah siapakah penerima Anugerah Sasterawan Negara yang pertama. Aku kira diwaktu hanya aku yang tahu jawapan itu (puji diri sendiri ni,hehe) tapi oleh kerana tak suka untuk mencapap jadi aku hanya menyuruh poje untuk menjawap "Keris Mas". tapi pada akhirnya diri aku seperti tercapap jua kerana sewaktu bendera-bendera berkibaran sewaktu tepat jam 12 di hadapan hanya aku sahaja yg memegang bendera "mechapro" dan hanya aku shj yg memakai pakaian yg berlainan dr org lain.tambah memalukan aku berdiri betul2 di depan rektor.nasib baik tiada org yg halau~

28/08/2006

lirik matamu bersinar,
membuatkan hatiku tertawan
senyuman mu listik
membuatkan jiwaku bergetar
gayamu...
membuatkan mindaku berkhayal
bila iramaku bergema dihatimu
mengapakah dikau hairan
kerana iramaku itu adalah hatimu


27.8.2006

note shah:
sudah seminggu aku tidak membuka blog aku kerana kekangan internet dan juga masa. internet di bilik aku tersangatlah lembab sehingga ingin mem"blogging" juga menjadi suatu masalah. aku juga byk kali me"refresh" laman blogspot aku tetapi tetap gagal utk "loading". beberapa hari lagi 31 ogos, jadi azam aku(berapa kali kita berazam dlm satu tahun daaa...) adalah utk berasa bebas~

25/08/2006

kasih, untukmu ku berikan bulan
moga terang malammu.....
kasih,utkmu aku sanggup berikan dunia
dunia ini, semuanya
ku tahu tidur malammu tidaklah indah
ku akan temankan mu bintang-bintang
kelip-kelipnya adalah degupanku


bagaimana aku ingin ceritakan kpd dunia
yg aku sanggup korbankan dirinya
untuk dirimu itu....
tak sanggup rasanya aku utuskan khabar cinta
angin tak sanggup
gunung tak sanggup
dan perlukah kutulis semua warkah cinta
dr seorg pencinta utk seorg dicintai...

25.8.2006

23/08/2006

i know tomorrow i got the test, MD(mechnical design) n i've to study. nevertheless, i think i must to write sumething. this is as if my luahan perasaan...i am neither drama nor poetry...i am juz human being release his expression with the word...


i do wutever i wanna do
how many ppl try to stop wut i do
talk about it, make me wanna loo
i am juz boy like in the bus schoool


dude, we alwayz make a mistake
i do wutever to make it make
i love my way,ppl couldnt dare
like fat shorty boy who crazy about cake

mama, i promise i wont abuse it
here i walk, there i talk wit' diff taste
give them mood and clue wit'
i laugh at their joke, u know i am juz lie

mama, i promise i dun be playa
walk it, do it like how ya wanna
the reason coz u send me there and here, this is ma walla
focus on study, remember i juz kid, dun cha...

i keep working and telling myself
is it focus the process or the result
my heart beating, i think i cant do no more gain
And I don't have to worry, becouse it juz called life

21/08/2006

Al-Fatihah to my lovely friend dunia wa akhirah, ukhti Abidah binti Adam

'I sing to her that rests below,
And, since the grasses round me wave,
I take the grasses of the grave,
And make them pipes whereon to blow.'

by Alfred Lord Tennison.


U student on bike fatally hit by truck

A 20-year-old University of Minnesota student diedThursday morning after a pickup truck struck thebicycle she was riding near the East Bank campusin Minneapolis.

Rain may have contributed to the collision, saidLt. Gregory Reinhardt, a Minneapolis police spokesman.


The collision happened at the intersection ofUniversity and Washington avenues about 6:40 a.m.The biker wasn't wearing a helmet, police said.


No charges are expected to be filed, Reinhardtsaid. The driver of the pickup was at the scene,cooperated with police and has been released, he said.


Authorities did not release the woman's namepending notification of next of kin. However,officials with the U's Malaysian StudentsAssociation identified the victim as Abidah Adam,a sophomore studying geology. She was beingsponsored for a four-year degree by Petronas,Malaysia's government-owned oil and gas company.


— Lee Egerstrom


Info dari abangnya - jenazah insyaallah akan tiba pada hari Rabu


p/s: thanz to the all sista especially Tok Bad coz gimme me the latest info...


the photo taken by her

wind river canyon yg sgt windy _comel je tent kitorg

spot the antelope! nope, i'm not in zoo..-intro field geology-

shell's falls

it's amazing what nature has

frying pan gulch mapping area


what friends said about her...

dia suke smbg perkara ilmiah thru YM. ada sekali tu, dia tny pendpt aku ttg teory of evolution, darwinism n harun yahya kat aku.kata dia itulah guna ym,bukan setakat sembang kosong

bid stakat yg aku kenal, org yg simple. dia bukan jenis yg kesah sgt ttg ckp tunduk muka/tak tunduk ni

pandai. sembg dia sembg ilmiah. berani n konfiden, sbb tu a dok US sorg2 slmbe badak je....


note shah:

aku betul2 hilang arah,kunci aku hilang. lost and found~hopefully~.

18/08/2006

i look stupid bcoz i am malay....

i look stupid if i speak malay, am i? yes,certainty. if i am go to 5 hotel star i am look stupid if i speak pure perak ren, if i go to cofeebuck i am look ridiculous and ppl will laugh at me if i speak pure northest. but they dont laugh at me (sumething that really proud) if i said something in malay and at the end of sentences i put "ma". besides, they dun laugh at me if imma speakang terabur also...so why i take a risk to speak malay, i dun want they laugh and make a joke of me...

to all of you, plz dun blame to especially artis because i am grown up from your system. the system that we are created and believing, i am like your mirror and represent of all new generation!!! u know dude, we r pretty tire and gonna be blur to hear all puisi by usman Awang, all hikayat'story as well as all dongeng story. but we are keen and desire to sit and hear Shakespeare, elizabeth ant etc as long as its from mat saleh (because we dun eat belacan we eat cheese). and we love sc and math subject. before this, we have to learn sc n math in malay (sumething i feel disgusting) that why we are tak pandai, and u can see rite now how we are doin well in sc and math subject, the result of sc and math in spm,pmr, upsr every years shown the progress and the graph always increase wut. many of us could speak in english, sing a song in english on tv.

is okay of u dun go to university if u worse in bahasa melayu because you can go to akedemi fantasia or others universities as long as you can mish-mash ya languange. Ladies and gentlemen, being a malay, quarter rawa, banjar, portugis make me fuss to use which language, i dun know how to speak rawa (i juz know several word like golap,nasi lomak) neither banjar(i dun know even the single word) nor portugis(never heard). so dun blame me if i speak in english. i think dat all because all the winner only get 2 minutes to speak up. ohh i forgot to say i really regret for my broken english and inept in bahasa melayu because basically i dun know who am i...that all thank you (heh, i dun know la how to spell "U", is it "you" or jus "u"??later la i check at DBP)


note shah:
minggu yg lepas telah mengajar aku byk perkara walupon terasa penat yg amat sgt. dan tidak lupa juga meninggalkan memori yg bakal aku bawa di masa hadapan, mengubah cara dan pemahaman aku tentang dunia dlm sisi yg berbeza (belajar apa itu erti kerja, apa itu erti mengampu,apa itu erti dikhianati). ya, hidup kita mesti terus belajar dan belajar dan kesilapan mmg berlaku.memori yg terindah?? mestilah sesi contengan dan lukisan di kaunter seranta kerna aku belajar bagaimana utk "melukis",heheh~

09/08/2006

I am full of tire today because ke hulu ke hilir to complete my transfer to kolej kediamanan satu. I felt really satisfied because all gonna be okay. But I got khutbah from pengetua kolej kediaman 2 la. It is ok as long as I got transfer (something that I dun know whether it is right decision or not). Beside that,I do really feel release today coz all question have been answered today. I've a question couple of week and I keep asking on that question everyday to myself and suddenly today I am seems got the complete answer for it. I am glad and I am really enjoyed to face all kind of this from couple week ago. It make me more desire and could muhasabah myself that what I should do and wanna do.


Sorry gotta go, I got test on Friday... special test because i've go to go to megamall at the evening. Just 10 of students mechanical and hopefully I can answer all questions without waiting for weeks =)

p/s: take time to post this entri coz internet veryx3 slow

08/08/2006

On my bed all by my lonesome.................in my thinking
Laying my body comfortably.................... with 1 pack twenties
Satisfy in my own way..............................after 10 bucks was burn
I couldn't predict my heart........................all seems okay to me


"I dun know is it having love between us. He is my best friend when I was form one. We lost contact after SPM. But finally we got married." (That thing makes me think we could counter how much love that we give or get but the jodoh part,God known better)


The lecturer answers the question from student about her background. She'd taught Literature with critical thinking's subject in my class. She asks me how I feel about literature and I am give a snappy answer, literature is about love and beauty. It is not right or wrong because the answer is very subjective. Literature about life...life is very subjective. And I think I am very subjective person too. I do love literature but I am always denying about that. Because I have story behind all this, somethin happened when I was in secondary school.


Above is my study case, pick up poem and then explain the theme, type of poem, rhyme, language and style and so on in front of class.


One Art

By Elizabeth Bishop

The art of losing isn't hard to master;
so many things seem filled with the intent
to be lost that their loss is no disaster.

Lose something every day. Accept the fluster
of lost door keys the hour badly spent.
The art of losing isn't hard to master

Then practice losing farther losing faster:
places and names and where it was your meant
to travel. None of these will bring disaster.

I lost my mother's watch. And look! My last or
next-to-last of three loved housed went.
The art of losing isn't hard to master.

I lose two cities lovely ones. And vaster
some realms I owned two rivers a continent.
I miss them but it wasn't a disaster.

--Even losing you (the joking voice a gesture
I love) I shan't have lied. It's evident
the art of losing is not too hard to master
though it may look like disaster

Note shah:
Aku kira roommate aku mempunyai tahap ingin tahu yg agak tinggi, tak heranlah jika didapati atas mejanya penuh dgn buku2 ilmiah. Beliau juga mengetahui perjalanan universiti yg pada aku anggap remeh shj. Kadang2 perasaan ingin tahu beliau itu ditempiaskan kpd aku, begitu byk soalan tentang mesyuarat yg aku hadiri, apa yg aku buat dan lain2. aku, kalau terasa ingin jawap aku jawap kalo tak aku biarkan shj berlalu,huhuhu~

06/08/2008

after cut my hair i am browsing on-newpaper and scanning...

Demi Allah, isteri saya hanya satu, iaitu Nori binti Abdullah." (By God, I only have one wife and she is Nori binti Abdullah)
-mmail-
khairi said to clear his name after the rumours were said he marriage wi' Maya Karin.i believe him

"I borrowed the money; it's not my own money. I took a loan from those who sold me the shares(ECM Libra)
-nst-
borrow or not, ya still get the profit margin, aite?? but i still believe him


"Kalau hendak dicari hingga ke lubang cacing, carilah orang yang menjual Pusat Perubatan Pantai itu kepada orang bukan Melayu seperti mana yang berlaku... jangan main tuduh saya sahaja."
-utusan-
that not the answer bro.

note shah:
masa di sekolah rendah dahulu, biasanya kelas akan tamat pada jam 2 ptg. terasa sgt letih tetapi apabila sampai ke rumah semua itu hilang apabila melihat ikan kaloi kacukkan taiwan aku berenang2 di dlm akuarium. aku membelinya dr sebesar tapak tgn, memberinya makan dgn tangan, bella sgt suka menyambar tgn aku.sgt cantik berwarna oren kemerahan. tapi apabila aku memasuki sekolah menengah ia mati kerana kesilapan aku sendiri. kadang2 hidup kita selalu lupa perkara2 yg gembira, apa yg kita tumpukan hanya kesedihan. jadi,carilah kegembiraan yg kita telah ada.

05/08/2006

Alhamdulliah, my pain slowly release and release..thanz to Dr. Muslia about da medicine and support. honestly, with fully of thankful.

*end*


Changes(edited by me =))

Come on come on
I see no changes wake up in the morning and I ask myselfis
life worth living should I blast myself?I'm tired of bein' poor & disrespect
my stomach hurts so I'm lookin' for a purse to snatch
USA give a damn about a muslim
pull the trigger kill a muslim he's a hero
Give the crack to the kids who the hell cares
one less hungry mouth on the welfare in afganistan
First ship 'em dope & let 'em deal the brothers
give 'em guns step back watch 'em kill each other
It's time to fight back that's what ppl said
2 shots in the dark will make 2 devil's dead
I got love for my brother but we can never go nowhere
unless we share with each other
We gotta start makin' changes
learn to see me as a brother instead of 2 distant strangers
and that's how it's supposed to be
How can the Devil take a brother if he's close to me?
I'd love to go back to when we played as kids
but things changed, and that's the way it is


Come on come on
That's just the way it is
Things'll never be the same
That's just the way it is
aww yeah


2]
I see no changes all I see is racist faces
misplaced hate makes disgrace to races
We under I wonder what it takes to make this
one better place, let's erase the wasted
Take the evil out the people they'll be acting right
'cause both devil are smokin' crack tonight
and only time we chill is when they kill each our kids
it takes skill to be real, time to heal each other
And although it seems heaven sent
We ain't ready, to see a free Aqsa, uhh
It ain't a secret don't conceal the fact
the penitentiary's packed, and it's filled with muslim
But some things will never change
try to show another way but you stayin' in the dope game
Now tell me what's a mother to do
bein' real don't appeal to the brother in you
You gotta operate the easy way
"I made a Jihad today" But you made it in a sleazy way
sellin' crack to the kid. " I gotta get paid
"Well hey, well that's the way it is


We gotta make a change...
It's time for us as a muslim to start makin' some changes
Let's change the way we eat
let's change the way we live
and let's change the way we treat each other.
You see the old way wasn't working so it's on us to do
what we gotta do, to survive.


[3]
And still I see no changes can't a brother get a little peace
It's war on the streets & the war in the Middle East
Instead of war on poverty we got a war on drugs
so muslim,what are u doing
And muslim ain't never did a crime muslim ain't have to do
But now we back with the revenge givin' it back to you
Don't let 'em jack you up, back you up
crack you up and pimp slap you up
You gotta learn to hold ya own
they get jealous when they see ya in mosque
But tell to their troops they can't touch the mosque
I don't trust this when they try to rush I bust this
That's the sound of my tool you say it ain't cool
my religion didn't raise no fool
And forever I stay muslim I gotta stay in piece
& I never get to lay back
'Cause I always got to worry 'bout the pay backs
some buck that u got from our oil
will comin' back to us after all these years
rat-tat-tat-tat-tat that's the way it is uhh

05/08/2006

Dear God

My hand is shaking again after long time I do not thru it. I can't breathe easily...O God, please help your servant. Give me a strong heart and spirit. Ameen

04/08/2006

Holla...tonite I got 1st counter for drama's club, I dun know why I am so willing n got a real verve to register in the club like this but innama a'malu binniaat, of coz its have some solid gold reason. But honestly I am not really klik to the top of that organization, it is juz for my 1st expression, tough.

P/s : al – Fatihah to kak nor's dad dat past away last week. I can see she still in hardest sabbatical. But she force herself to attend da meeting

My university's convocation juz around the corner, only remain 1 week yet and my task totally abundant. Amidst the entire task I have a 1st test and I believe all members face the same problem. we'd have 100 and so secretariat but what people could see only certain people had mingled around in and out da HEP's office, where is the others ppl? I try to husnu zan but I couldn't. Serious shit I am so geram to certain people in my unit, it's really difficult to do a business with kinda ppl like this in real world (kalo aku dlm geng mamak stall, conqueror or rumah merah conform aku dah pukul org2 macam ni!!!!maklumlah aku ada 2 calit* )

*2 calit = seseorg pernah pukul 2 org anak VIP such as Datuk or YB. Tp derg mmg jahat pun


note shah:

Aku tahu kau tak pernah kenal erti cinta,
bagaimana aku ingin beritahumu
Bagaimana cinta itu terjadi
Bagaimana keindahan itu

Cinta terjadi tanpa sebab
Dan ia tak perlu bersebab
Dan semua semua itu telah ditetapkan
Dan aku percaya
Kau akan rasai keindahan itu
Mungkin dgn cara yg berbeza
Kerna kau sungguh istimewa
Dan memang teristimewa

Mereka semua mengatakannya
Bolehkah kau buka sedikit ruanganmu itu
Untuk mengisi keindahan yg telah ada

01/08/2006

PeRak BuMi Ku

JOHOR BARU: The Prime Minister arrived here in a take-charge mood yesterday and made the biggest announcement the country has heard from him this year since the Ninth Malaysia Plan: Johor is the new growth engine for Malaysia. It will create a million new jobs over the next two decades.




-nst-

abdullah also said that this is his idea. it did not come from anyone else. also did not come from KJ,hehe...im juz kidding,bro!

klang valley, eastern site, south side, north side... so how about the perak ren??? where??? i cant see the picture...it's not affair. north got Permodalan Nasional, Eastern got Petronas and Johor lot of ports(port kapal,port lepak,port race kete, pot pet). how about perak???proton??

note shah:
membaca nota-nota terakhir dprd nana di blognya membuatkan aku terpikir akan perasaannya. walaupon dia tidak aku kenali tetapi inilah kali pertama aku membaca nota-nota terakhir seorg blogger. itu pon setelah aku terlanjur ke blog aminitium.al-Fatihah untuk nana yg meninggal pada 5 julai 2006.