31/10/2006

Perang Hunain

aku malas utk mengatakan bias-bias syiah akhi faisal(faisaltehrani). anda pun boleh baca dlm kolum beliau hauzah seni(harakah) atau di blog beliau. dan sengaja tidak ku tinggalkan komen di ruang komen beliau kerana dahulu banyak persoalan yg kubangkitkan mendapat jawapan drpd akhi yg jauh tersasar drpd maksud soalan. byk yg aku kecewa sejak akhir2 ini ditambah2 dgn penulisan beliau yg tidak mengiktiraf saladin(salahudin al-ayubi) di atas pembebasan palestin sbg seorg ikon yg harus dibanggakan atas alasan pembunuhan kaum syiah (fatimiyyah) di mesir.

mengenai perang hunain(Syawal Ini: Menghayati Sirah di Hunain ) aku tidak pasti di mana beliau mendasarkan sumber rujukan beliau. tetapi di sini aku hanya ingin memetik beberapa yg aku tahu sedikit mengenainya.

beliau menulis:
Adalah diriwayatkan ramai sahabat yang melarikan diri kerana takut dan sebagainya, hingga hanya tinggal beberapa orang iaitu Saidina Ali, bapa saudara Nabi, Saidina Abbas, Aqueel (saudara kandung Saidina Ali), Abdullah Ibn Zubair, Zubair Ibn Awam, Usman Ibn Zaid dan Abu Sufian Ibnul Harris. Menurut hadis yang diriwayatkan oleh Abu Qatadah, dalam Sahih Bukhari, Bab 17, halaman 50 hatta sahabat-sahabat utama pun meninggalkan medan perang termasuklah Umar.

beliau juga merujuk kpd Surah Taubah ayat 25 bagaimana Allah menyinggung mereka ini:
"Allah telah menolong kalian dalam banyak medan pertempuran, dan dalam perang Hunain, ketika kalian merasa bangga dengan jumah kalian yang besar, tetapi hal itu tidak berguna apa pun bagi kalian. Dan bumi pun menjadi sempit bagi kalian, padahal ia luas, kemudian kalian melarikan diri dari medan perang."

aku menjawab:
-lihat juga ayat selepasnya Surah Taubah ayat 26, bagaimana Allah menurunkan ketenangan ke atas Rasul-Nya dan juga org2 BERIMAN dan juga diturunkan pertolongan ke atas mereka.
-semak hadis Bukhari hadis 2549 dr ibnu masu'd. dikhabarkan seramai 80org sahabat masih lagi bersama Rasul saw yg kita kasihi.
-menurut ibnu ishaq , para sahabat daripada Muhajirin, Ansar dan Ahlul Bait yang tidak berganjak bersama dengan Rasulallah SAW di medan peperangan Hunain adalah Saidina Abu Bakar, Saidina Umar, Saidina Usman, Saidana Ali dan lain

*ibnu ishaq dikenali sbg syiah dan sbhgian yg lain mengatakan Qadariyyah. digelar dajjal oleh imam malik.

- Tafsir ruhul ma'ani Al Alusi menyebut nama Saidina Abu Bakar dan Saidina Umar di antara orang yang tidak berganjak bersama dengan Rasulallah saw yg kita kasihi.
- Diriwayatkan oleh imam tarmizi tidak sampai seratus org(rujuk kitab hadis tarmizi)
-Dan kebanyakkannya meriwayatkan seramai 80org

pada aku ini bukanlah apa,ia hanya cubaan utk merendah-rendahkan keperibadian Abu Bakar dan Umar(masih ingat apa syiah gelar kpd 2 org sahabat ini?)
Syiah juga(meskipun tidak semua) telah mengkafirkan semua sahabat kecuali 4(jika tidak silap) Ali, Salman Al-Farisi,Zubair Awwam dan seorg lagi.

p/s: ramai pembaca setia blog akhi faisal aku lihat sedikit sebyk terikut2 rentak beliau. ada yg terang-menderang mmg telah tertanam unsur2 syiah dari mula tetapi kebanyakkan baru mula hendak terpengaruh.walau bagaimanapun aku tetap menyajungi beliau sbg antara penulis yg berbakat besar.

WA

31/10/2006

aku dah terkena (story b4 hari raya)

"Shah, ko dtg rumah aku mlm ni ye, dlm pkl 8-10 malam. Tp kalu ko nak dtg bila2 pun xpe, aku buat makan2 sket", jasmint call me.

"Ok, tapi maybe after terawikh la jas,"I am answering quickly.

At the beginning I won't be there but suddenly change my mind around 11 pm. So I'd sms-ed her "jas, kalo aku nak dtg skrg bley tak".She replies back "datang la."

So, I'd picked the motor and vrooomed straight ahead to jasmint's house. Seriously kecut cuak gak coz that motor without road tax and I'll enter the police station area soon because jasmint living at the berek. But I am deeply told myself "ala tak kan ngn polis nanti aku tak boleh kautim kot"

After 15 minute I reached at in front of that police station, the berek at the back of. I looked at the gate already close, so I turn the way but suddenly I saw jasmint berseluar pendek waving her hand to me, so I stay at the gate until one young policeman open it up, without further ado, me myself enter the gate "mekasih ek bang" I said as if to be polite. That police juz angguk and smile. And I smiled back too, luckily he do not check mine,Jasmint doesn't stood far from the gate already smile at me. "aku ingatkan mamat bangla kapet mana la tadi jual karpet malam2 buta"."aku ingatkan td minah hindustan mana td main air tgh2 mlm n," i told her back."apsal lambat?". "ada hal td," i cheated. The ceremony already finish which is held at behind of that station, the people already dismissed and remain of that now just wash the dish and so on. So jasmint asking me to follow her into her house at the back. So I am jus follow. Her house actually level one thanks I don't need to use much energy. Masuk2 je umah jas, I said to her " kat luar punya la buruk, kat dalam cam kondo", jasmint just giggling as usually. "duduk la dulu aku buat air kat dapur", aku yg sememangnya telah duduk then follow her into the kitchen, give a hand to her. Jasmint asked me to try the meal; it is like porridge but not bubur actually. I can't remember what she called in Punjabi. "tapi kalu org tak biasa maybe dia ckp manis kot, aku dah biasa," she is claimed.

We went to the living room back.I am sit at the sofa in front of her whilst she sits on the floor like control2 ayu gitu. Suddenly her younger brother david come along. "Dave, my friend shah. I think you are already met him before, is it?" He said hello to me. During we all just rancak berborak her mummy beberapa kali melintas kat tepi kitaorg but langsung tak tegur aku pretend like I am non-existence. Jasmin's friend came to the living room from outside, then the conversation fulfill with laughing and laughing. Dave that jasmint asked me to call him murgan, asyik ketawa jek dari tadi.xberenti2 ketawa. He is truly bewildered us at all.

The time already 12.15 and the jasmint's friend already left. Finally then I asked for what reason she make a makan2. So at the end the ice was broke, I'd become aware it is for deepavali. I think Sikh do not celebrate dewali. My mistake. Aku dah terkena dah...

Then, his mummy I don't for how much time sauntered cross behind us but at this time she stopped and said something to Dave. When she wants to go jas suddenly talk to her mummy. "mummy, you are still do not say hello to my friend yet. I guess jasmint could read how I am not suitable with that situation. Before this when I encounter with her mum aku jek yg lebih2 say Hello to untie. I know she lil’bit offensive about her daughter. Jasmint always remind me that.
"Hello" she said "hello untie, nice nite," I tried exhilarate her. Suddenly she took a place right after me. Then she invites me to taste a kuih in silver bowl at her hand. For initially, I don't want because my tummy is so pack but she is persuade me to take it. "hey, try la this, sedap I tell you,".So as a show my respect I take that kuih. Then I asked jas tu share that kuih.

"Jas, u wants it half," I brought the kuih by my hand to jas.
What kuih? She asked
"Jasmint don't like that kuih, kuih cucur badak," her mum explained.
"Cucur badak??i dont want, don't like it shah," jasmint told me.

Untie asks me a bit of question and the conversation is going to be okay and sometimes more serious. Untie and I dominated it while jasmint only interrupt when she saw I am quite blurr. Yes, her mum talks in English and sometime mixes it with Punjabi,that why jasmint is not really good in Punjabi because they only use fully of that language when they talk with their oldma. Ala like some of malay people la and I think untie didn't realize that. And for many time jasmint always interrupt "shah, actually my mum told that bla bla..."

Dave still laughing likes before, untie, jasmint and I still blurr why.
"See mummy, I dont know why he like that, after he woke up he so irritated" jas pointed her finger into dave face.

The clock had shown almost 12.45 am, so I am excusing myself so go back. When I am on my motorcycle I recognized that I accidentally left my keys on the coffee table. So I told jasmint to get it. Jasmint opened the gate for me, the jasmint's younger brother still follow us."kacau daun betul," I smiled and said near to jasmint ear . "Dia ni mmg", jasmint give a press his head with her elbow. After talk awhile, I chow...seriously I really don't know the makan2 is held for diwali. For it is just like rendezvous...

note shah:
setiap org pasti mempunyai keinginan dan hajat tersendiri. kdg2 keinginan tersebut walaupun nampak kecil oleh sesetengah org tetapi ia penting bagi sesetengah yg lain. cita, keinginan,kemahuan semuanya ku satukan dlm sebuah doa. dan semoga bisikan doa aku itu didengari-Nya.

bagaimana hati tak terpikat,
pada kembang bunga pagi,
semua kata telah terbait,
dibisikkan indah di dingin hari.

29/10/2006

The hari raya

Family
All are together in the morning of hari raya except chik and his family. The nite before hari raya, chik called to ask mum why his rendang daging doesn't empuk. So, as alternative in case his rendang doesn't taste like rendang, he booked 1000 satay for his rumah terbuka.
Still crisis with my oldma, I've been caught in the middle of the crisis. I do not like that.
Meet the sepupu-sepapat whom I do not meet for 3, 4 years like Ole,moni, ira,mamat and so on. Ira brought the new kelisa . Moni is rather gloomy about his fiancee who was dying 3 days before hari raya.
The adopted father of kak ana, Pak Long died 2 days of hari raya.

Friend
The night of Hari Raya, I had called almost of my friend. Fortunately my mum got i-talk card worth RM50 sempena hari raya and she asked me to use it at all. I broke my own record talk to the phone 4hour non-stop before this 3hour and something. I called my colleagues like iniarun, kae, blom etc. beside that, I called nadia, shikin's sister, sham,aziz too. Else, I gotta called jijah who I am still felt guilty until right now. She is now living at kedah from Klang. Her voice still same as dulu and she is pretending shock when I call her,haha. Hari raya also is a space time for me to meet almost of my friend,I got updated new of my friends whom one has been caught by police, resigns from job, married etc. sorry to some of my friend yg aku xdapat pergi rumah berhari raya sebab xsempat.

TV program- all movies I had been watching before. For this year, the best TV programs I picked up are usik2 chef wan and konsert akustika(M nasir,nan,andy,papa rock,jay jay,zainal abiddin),they all so spontaneous.

IT'S SUCK-Faizal A4 like silly person aswer when he had asked about kuih by aznil. Camne la dia bley jadi artis. Jamal Abdillah as usually forgot his lyrics and sometimes his voice hilang. For the worse he is forgot which part his turn to sing when he is sing with misha in Konsert Fenomena.But seriously I do not watch many TV program, so couldn't suck what others programs else.

note shah
Hari raya ke3 aku kena dehidrasi. maka niat utk study selepas 2hari raya tidak terlaksana nampaknya. akhir-akhir cuti baru aku mula membuka buku. maka sudah tentu aku terpaksa menfaatkan sepenuhnya minggu "study week" ini. dan jgn tanya pasal duit raya~

21/10/2003

kuih santapan di pagi raya
Sempena untuk hari kemengan kita(hari raya) dan juga sempena hari Al-Quds(jumaat 20 okt). aku tinggalkan buah persoalan,apa selepas kemenangan kita(muslim) menakluki bumi palestin??
jika anda mempersoalkan kembali kenapa ia harus dipersoalkan sedangkan persoalan lebih besar (sbg contoh: gerak kerja ke atas proses pembebasan itu yg lebih penting).

cuba renungkan
"Masyarakat tanpa kaum intelektual yang berkesan tidak mampu merumuskan masalah. Ciri utama (individu serta kelompok)bukan intelektual adalah tidak adanya kemahuan berfikir dan tidak mampu melihat akibat (ketika proses berfikir)."kata profesor Syed Hussein Alatas.

jangan hentikan pikiran anda. kerna memikir itu adalah fitrah. dan jgn rosakkan fitrah itu disebabkan oleh golongan yg malas berpikir.
(seperti pengeluaran graduan segera/pasangsiap mungkin??)

minal 'dil wafa izin

p/s: mayb take time to update coz coming will busy with examintion and assesment ;P

21/10/2006

kenapa tangkap dia...
membaca akhbar mengenai pembebasan beberapa tahanan ISA sedikit pon tidak menguja aku. sejak dr peristiwa 2001 aku memaksa diri aku utk tidak berbicara mengenai ISA lg. ia bermaksud aku tidak akan memaafkan langsung org2 yg menggerakkan ISA. terujakah anda terhadap pembebasan Nik Adli? sekurang2nya dia masih mempunya sekolah utk diajar (baca: matapencarian). atau terujakah anda tentang pembebasan beberapa kerat org politik, yg kemudiannya tempat2 mereka di pentas2 ceramah umum yg telah pasti.tetapi bagaimana dgn pembebasan org yg tidak dikenali?? apa salah org2 yg tidak dikenali ini?? penangkapan 2001 dihadapan kami mmg aku tidak dpt lupakan. apa salah dia?? mengapa kami tidak disoal siasat berikutan kesalahan dia?? tidak takutkah mereka2 ini sempat mengajar kami perkara yg anda takutkan itu atau sekurang2nya menanam benih pikiran. mulai dari saat itu, aku tidak pernah mendoakan pembebasan dia kerna aku tahu bila dia dibebaskan akan ada org2 yg lain di ISA kan(dan kami tidak pernah solat hajat serta membaca yasin bg membebaskannya). tetapi sampai kini aku masih dihantui dgn persoalan...kenapa tangkap dia???

Dan kepada anda. apa yg anda harapkan drpd pembebasan ini....? hanya sekadar tersenyum melihat insan2 yg telah bebas berdakapan dgn anak isteri di pagi raya??atau lebih dari itu....

19/10/2006

Sahurku dgn "chelsea vs Barca"

"Zaid Akhtar kemilau nama besar "maybe it is not the answer about "Sejarah yang tidak harus berulang"(Mingguan Malaysia 17 September 2006) but juz brief perusal after bersahur.

"runtuh atau lesunya dunia sastera bukanlah kerana penulis sastera pop. Dunia kesusasteraan lesu dan terpinggir kerana ada elitis sastera yang sengaja membina kasta"

literature : creative writing of recognized artistic value

actually sastera sebenarnya tidak pernah meminggirkan "pop culture" ttp mungkin org yg menggerakkan sastera itu sendiri menganggap "pop culture" itu najis.


juz quoted(for me make me impress):

Kalau novel-novel sastera tak bersifat syok sendiri, agaknya lagi ramai orang baca. Kalau satu novel penuh dengan perkataan-perkataan yang dicuri dari bahasa sanskrit/jawa/arab/latin yang langsung tak pernah digunapakai dalam bahasa harian dan hanya difahami oleh kelompok peminat sastera, camne orang lain nak baca? penulis sastera ulung luar negara mengambil masa bertahun2 nak siapkan satu novel, penulis sastera malaysia siapkan novel dalam 3 bulan, guna semua perkataan dalam kamus dewan, dengan kisah-kisah yang bermesej tapi selalunya terlampau judgemental dan deskriptif (kadang-kadang sampai nak muntah kalau baca description yang terlampau detail..bosan..). konon nak mengajak orang berfikir dan mengajar pembaca. pembaca tak perlu diajar. pembaca perlu ditarik untuk terus menyelak mukasurat. kalau nak bagi gambaran sebuah kampung sampai 5 mukasurat, jangan harapla orang nak baca.


aku???
for me, i dun know la what to comment(hehe) coz i juz read lil' bit of sastera bookz whether in bahasa or inggeris, i read the budak setan and i read the salina too.maybe the way of expression is diff,rite? but some ppl like epal n others like durian. orrrr if sumer said "pop culture" is juz like desert, nice but not really health. u can take a lil'bit but not all, they said again the problm here ppl want more desert n lil'bit healthy food and for ma opinion lantak drg la mulut drg,duit drg,drg yg nak beli....likewise i like them both.

14/10/2006

Tentang seroja
Bila mana kami diwaktu f4 menjemput seorg ustaz rock,apa yg kami harapkan adalah kami dpt menitip keinsafan disamping menambahkan ilmu pengetahuan. dan diwaktu itu ustaz ini baru mula hendak naik masih tidak berapa terkenal di seluruh malaysia. Apa yg menarik skrg ini ustaz ini mula belajar2 muncul dikaca TV dan majalah-majalah hiburan yg isi kandungan gambar-gambar artis separuh badan terlihat. Bukan niat berdakwah itu yg aku ingin timbulkan, tetapi betapa mulut-mulut manusia yg sememangnya jahat ini mudah shj melemparkan kutukan dan makian trhadap org lain. tapi mungkin akan ada org yg timbulkan ustaz rock ini hanya menyatakan kebenaran dan hanya membuat contoh, aku menjawap contoh-contoh yg ustaz itu berikan yg membolehkan anda ketawa sampai terkentut2. dia seperti mencipta dunia "baiknya" sendiri,mewujudkan ruang eksklusif,kalau mereka hendak jadi baik mereka kena berdiri sebaris dgn kita, kalau tidak mereka itu adalah ahlul maksiat.Contoh2(artis) yg diberikannya hanya menjadi modal utk membuat anda ketawa. seronok ke kita ketawa ke atas kemaksiatan org??? kita mmg boleh bercakap ttp kadang2 perlu lebih sopan dan berhati2 apabila bercakap dgn memegang mic.mmg lain perbezaannya.dan jgn terkejut skg ustaz itu telah pandai utk berdiri sama pentas dgn pengacara serta artis yg bila tunduknya akan nampaklah seluar dlmnya. ustaz jelmaan rock ini yg dulunya berlilit serban dikepala skrg cuma tersangkut hanya di bahu shj, kopiahnya pula melurut menutupi telinga. dan kalu kopiah itu dijahitkan dgn lambang NBA sebijik seperti snow cap aku (mungkin aku juga boleh digelar ustaz??hehe). apabila ditanya mengenai imej rambut panjangnya sekarang dia ringkas menjawap yg dia hanya menguji sejauh mana penerimaan masyarakat terhadap imej rambut panjangnya. dan dlm nada kecewa beliau mengambarkan maasyarakat lebih melihat kpd imej bukan kepada apa yg dibawanya. ya ustaz, begitulah penerimaan title anda sbg ustaz,hanya dgn berserban anda telah digelarkan sbg ustaz dan jgn marah bila anda berambut panjang anda digelar sebagai penyanyak.

Dendangannya biasalah klise lagu seroja, nanyian yg sama utk semua insan2 yg baik. maka jadilah seroja itu semacam lagu nasyid,malah mungkin diertikan lg dgn lagu dakwah.Jadi jika org2 lain yg menyanyi lagu seroja lantas berdiri di pentas agama, panggil shj dia Ustaz. arghh mudah sgt imej mendahului pengertian. maka tinggallah agama itu sbg "alat". alat utk memuaskan diri-aku beramal di dunia ini.

p/s:kwn aku pesan, best dengar CD ceramah ustaz rock ni banyak lawak.

kenapa perlu kritik?
agama tidak perlu kpd kritikan,tetapi pendukungnya yg perlu kpd kritikan. jika ada yg mengatakan agama yg kita perlu kritik adalah bkn agama sebagaimana yg disebutkan oleh rasullah tetapi agama yg menyaksikan peperangan 2 kelompok sahabat, maka dr kaca mata apa anda mengkritik agama itu??atau sememangnya kita tidak faham maksud beragama???
dan jika agama itu suatu ideologi, maka anda juga akan dapat membayangkan jawapan oleh Abu Bakar ra apabila rasullah saw balik dan membawa perkhabaran baginda telah di-israk mikraj-kan, tentu bukan??

note shah:
sudah beberapa malam aku tertinggal solat tarawikh secara berjemaah akibat kekangan dr kelas dan juga test pd mlm hari. mmg terasa rugi. mmg aku solat di bilik tetapi di bilik solatnya seperti "cepat lg ayam mematuk dedak", istilah akak aku la.aku kalo teringat istilah ini mesti ketawa sendirian kerana aku dan akak mmg saling suka kacau mengacau bila solat.aku plg suka kacau akak aku di masa tahyat akhir tambah2 solat 4 rakaat. mesti anda semua ingat yg akak aku ini masih muda lg kan??akak aku dah ada 4 org anak~

08/10/2006

Between amy's seroja and mawi's seroja
what the diff?
maybe in genre, mawi- world music and amy-rock n roll

the samething
the title of seroja, both men

so,what the islamic's view?
maybe mawi long time ago was guru agama, while amy was not

so, could we decide mawi more islamic than amy?
amy pon solat and amy itu islam, aku pon solat and i am muslim too, so we are in of sync

so which side the islamic of mawi?
amy sing a song nur ain, or intifada but amy sing a song suralabaya dlm D' major, i guess suralabaya more sufism rather than the nur ain

so what was more?
maybe malay like to polemic, owh not...actually malay people have the higest and enormous emotional themself

who's the malay??
nor than less,that i am,bcoz i write about mawi

imej islam
org yg lebih islamnya diminta jgn marah kalo org yg tak islamic islamnya kata org yg pakai lebai pon main no. ekor, org yg bawak tasbih pon masuk pub
ini kerana,org yg lebih islamnya selalu(terlalu??) memuji2 org yg berimej islam.

conclusion (maybe question)
adakah org yg lebih islamnya dan org yg kurang islamic islamnya selalu terkeliru dgn imej islam??

p/s : seperti terkelirunya aku menulis dlm bahasa inggeris dan melayu ini,hehehe~

note shah:
seperti yg dijangka minggu ini adalah diantara minggu yg plg busy kerana aku mempunyai byk test. PSM aku juga akan ditentukan dlm minggu ini juga.Aku ingatkan dlm cuti hujung minggu ini aku dapat menelaah semua benda yg akan masuk ujian minggu ini, tetapi sekali lagi azam tinggal azam~ Assigment aku, menulis esei review mengenai filem yg aku tonton dm bab "pop culture" masih belum selesai kerana sewaktu aku menonton "Good Nite and Good Luck" aku tertidur di pertengahan filem, jadi seperti aku masih tak buat apa2 utk assigment itu juga,hehe~

04/10/2006

The uncertainty

As human we are basically life in uncertainty condition. It is not like we throw a ball and we could expect where is the ball will bum at the end. In science too many things is just we predict that we call as theory. Theory is just theory until we could prove that things after. The engineering is uncertainty, while sciences and math is the certainty.

I am deeply thinking about what Einstein said:
As far as the laws of mathematics refer to reality, they are not certain; as far as they are certain, they do not refer to reality.

And for get the advancement, it is not thru engineering field, but it must thru science and math field because science and math provide us the way of certainty. The engineering is too obtain and stand on bottom of logical/kesebaban(too much on economic, and too-too much on politic) and at the other hand science is no need to logic; because it will find out the logic itself. Thus, because of engineering too logic eventually it is go to uncertainty at the end. For this, that why Malaysia variably do not know how their ways in obtaining the level of advancement/development themselves. And for at all, physic is a mother of the all knowledge, chemistry as well as biology is just icing on the cake. The uncertainty just between 0 and 1.

Dan aku skrg belajar perkara yg aku tak pasti~haha(aku ketawa)

Yg ini pasti
U know, i think for this test for AC subject, i think i can get A after i'd understood all concept better than test 1 yg mana aku xtau apa2 pun(bcoz I am too busy with the non-academic thing). But this time still unlucky jauh panggang dari api, I couldn't reach A, dan aku frust menonggeng this whole evening think about that. Because it gonna be difficult to me at the exam to score gile maut nanti. Hopefully at this semester I'll stay on the track,3 pointer and above.

Note shah:
Hari ini terdapat 2 ketidakpastian dalam diari untuk hari ini. Pertama, tak pasti sama ada aku dpt buat CIM untuk PSM aku. Dan yg kedua, aku tak terima balas sms lg,walaupon aku sgt malas utk bersms tetapi setiap sms yg aku hantar mestilah di balas oleh org(hukum thermo u get what u give,hehe).Dan utk itu aku menulis mengenai ketidakpastian(yg aku sendiri xpasti betul ke tak ni) sbg interpretasi utk hari ini.

01/10/2006

Damn the internet connection...
howdy,my head seems want to whirls and twirls concerned about my pom pom slowly internet. I am in searching information about producing of syringe. I'd tried to find out the book related to syringe at library but fail. I am too much about internet now. Several thing my task is needed to using via internet at this moment. and i had a bumpy ride all over it.

My world now (not mawi) is round about test-project, project-test. Sumething if we do more could produce the boringness at the end.

Is it Malaysian band so worse compare to Indonesian??
People believe in music no barrier and edge, we could listen all music without prejudice whether I am Jawa, Banjar, Porto, negito or etc. I'd chatted with member from Indonesia couple days ago, I asked her about our local music, did she love our song or band from here. Frankly she said no, she got very limited choice. She love Datin ct nurhaliza(nurhalija) currently but there just now, not more coz she is only know ct nurhalija, they couldn't get any variety of artiss from Malaysia. once upon a time she like ukays but that long time ago. Scenario in Malaysia, our people give a reason that our quality music not so good, that why couldn't jual at seberang . They said, hey try listen dewa's song and compare it with KRU. I said back dun u compare between food and rubbish. Compare with same level such as we take M. Nasir style. Or if they said the seberang lyric's so easy to understand and could reach their heart, and I said back try listening to Peterpan, I bet u gonna not understand what the meaning of the word, betcha. Here, we got talented band ape, try pretty ugly, the crazy music of OAG, Gerhana Ska Cinta, one buck shot and etc in case if u don't wanna hear boboy, new boyz and all the lentok2 band. Org kita, selalu begitu...

My drama...
At all is suck, u know it is suck. So messy, the hanky-panky music arrangement is played too late didn't suit the scenes. The lighting is too clumsy. My drama initially is titled unduk-unduk berenang but the end changed to eccentric title siamang sakti. Seriously it's just wasting my time (it is take a time to write the script!!!) to do all this meanwhile I got the hard to die test for subject manufacturing. But something I satisfied, some dialogue had vomited spontaneously by my cast. Also, the music unplugged that they was playing at that nite awesome and really nice dude. when my cast playing the role on the stage my armpit soo sticky (evendo i used nevea deodorant doh) coz worry if the audience getting blurr du not understand what we try to deliver. but thanks God, there still have giggling around the crowded.

Aku dan kurma...
Setiap kali ramadhan, ketika berbuka puasa aku akan terkenangkan sorg gadis menjual kurma yg pada aku cukup lengkap(meski manusia itu tidak sempurna). Namanya seindah akhlaknya, setulus hatinya,semulus katanya...nurazrin. bila aku turun ke bazar ramadhan utk membeli ayam percik kegemaran aku, aku mesti curi-curi pandang wajahnya(namun aku tak pernah membeli kurma drnya pun,hehe). Keluarga aku dgn keluarganya agak rapat, namun aku tak pernah menegurnya walaupon aku selamba kodok pernah beraya dirumahnya,terketak-ketak lutut time ayah dia suruh aku baca doa selamat(giler nak menjamah juadah raya pon perlu doa selamat). Ada 2 org manusia yg jenisnya berlawanan dr aku (baca:perempuan) yg aku ragu-ragu untuk tegur, dan salah satunya adalah yg bernama nurazrin ini. Mungkin aku merasakan aku tidak diciptakan utk dia, dia terlalu bagus utk aku. Dan aku tahu juga seperti tahun yg dulu, dia tidak akan berada di gerai kurma itu lg kerana terpaksa berpuasa di campus seperti aku jua.kalian tahu...rasa yg aku kenangkan itu bukanlah waktu aku menatap wajahnya, tetapi waktu aku berpaling utk melihat wajahnya, rasanya seribu satu rasa.

p/s: lelaki itu sememangnya pemuja perempuan, meskipun isterinya disebelah, perempuan yg cantik tetap menarik lirik mata lelaki.

that all my report and until now I hope my PSM (projek sarjana muda) got the right title and the right instructor. I wanna do CIM!!!

note shah:
di hari-hari bulan puasa ini aku sangat malas utk mengupdate blog. seperti biasa aku memerlukan sebungkus cikedis utk aku update blog ini. kalo tidak cikedis mesti coklat atau sekurang-kurangnya secawan nescafe, tetapi bila bulan puasa maka hanya plastik cikedis yg menjadi santapan mata aku. keputusannya, aku tidak update blog,haha...namun aku akan cuba mengupdate blog ini di sekitar malam diwaktu sebelum sahur.kepada sesiapa yg meninggalkan msj di msjbox aku, minta maaf xdpt utk membalas kerana beberapa hari ini laptop aku mempunyai masalah dgn blogspot aku.~